How This Trans Trainer Helps LGBTQ+ Clients Get Strong

Fitness changed the direction of my life, and I wanted to give that gift to other people, so I decided to become a trainer, working specifically with LGBTQIA+ clients. I had a complicated relationship with my own body, and I realized that so does everybody else: we’ve all grown up in a culture that’s fatphobic and full of unhealthy messaging around dieting, and we’re forced to do exercise at school in a way that can put us off liking it in later life. And then for trans people, there can be gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia on top of that, and they need a fitness coach who understands where they’re coming from.

I try to not bring any preconceived notions to sessions with my clients because for the longest time that was what discouraged me from trying strength training in the first place. I went to college in Southern California where bodybuilding is huge. I’d see all these jacked frat boys, and I’d make all kinds of negative associations. I didn’t think I belonged with them, or that there was anything there for me. But that’s not entirely true. I had to do a lot of work to unlearn the idea that masculinity is inherently toxic before I could even enter that space. And once I was there, I didn’t feel any less masculine because I realized I already was.

Fitness can be a form of gender affirmation. I mean, obviously that looks different for everybody—some people want to alter their appearance, for others it’s about achieving an inner sense of peace—but whatever your goal, exercising can make you feel more at home in your body. It’s like learning to lift weights: you have to be very aware of where the weights are in relation to your body, your body’s positioning, where you’re feeling the activation. Over time, it becomes easier to read your own body, to check in with yourself. Am I in pain right now? Am I feeling anxious? For me, it’s helped me connect my mind to my body in so many ways; to feel aligned and totally myself.

It’s about so much more than just building muscle to look more masculine. What even is masculinity? Is it confidence? Assertiveness? You can be a woman and embody those traits too. And it goes beyond physical strength (again, femme bodybuilders exist). When I ask a group of trans people to define masculinity, nobody can really agree, because it means something different to everybody, and relates differently to their journey and their gender expression. I have nonbinary clients who want to get strong but embody that duality, and trans men who want to be more muscular so that they can feel more comfortable wearing more feminine clothes.

I’ve had some clients who were apprehensive about going into the gym for the first time because they seemed like such “bro-y” spaces. They’d say “I don’t want to be a total meathead,” then a few months down the line they would be totally about that beefcake life, making jokes about being a jock and a himbo (or sometimes a “theybo”). We all want to have a space where we can do that with each other, be around people who understand us…even if it’s just so we can share memes about being total gymrats.

It’s super important to build an inclusive fitness community for trans people, where we can talk about navigating our relationships with our bodies and show up for ourselves and for each other. Last year, I organized for a bunch of us to do a Tough Mudder together in Seattle, and this year we’re doing three more. Most of my clients wouldn’t be comfortable going to this kind of thing alone, especially as the crowd can be mostly men, but doing it together enabled them to feel safe while taking up space and cheering each other on.

That’s the main lesson I want to impart to my clients, because it’s the most important thing I’ve learned too: If there’s something you want to do, but you feel like you don’t belong, just remember that you do belong.

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