Khloé Kardashian says losing weight has made her ‘more insecure.’ Here’s why

Khloé Kardashian is opening up about how her attitude has changed as she’s lost weight.

The 40-year-old reality star spoke to Bustle about her weight loss journey, revealing that dealing with weight changes — and the media’s scrutiny on her physical body — has been challenging.

“It is a journey and it is a constant struggle, at least for me,” said Kardashian.

Kardashian explained that she didn’t set out to lose weight when she first started to work out at a gym. “My weight loss journey started because I was getting a divorce,” said Kardashian, who shares daughter True, 6, and son Tatum, 2, with former partner Tristan Thompson. 

“I remember I was going to therapy and the next thing I knew, something private I told my therapist was on a tabloid,” she continued. “And I knew that my therapist disclosed this information to a tabloid because there’s no way this could have gotten out there. So I stopped going to therapy and started going to the gym. I needed a release, but I did not trust anybody else anymore. And the place that I felt the safest was the gym.”

She said she has since resumed therapy with another therapist.

Kardashian called the resulting changes to her body a “byproduct” of her workouts rather than their focus. “I loved the way I felt. I loved testing myself and challenging myself. And I’ve been doing it for 10-plus years now, and I love it,” she said.

She also shot down rumors that she’s undergone weight loss surgery.

“Over the past three years, people are like, ‘You must have gotten surgery because you just lost weight.’ I’m like, ‘It’s been a 10-year journey! What are you talking about?’ But even if people get surgery or (get on) the Ozempic craze, I’m like, ‘Who cares!’ As long as people feel good about themselves, who am I to judge? 

“I think it’s ridiculous, the judgment on that,” she added. “I’m just mad (Ozempic) wasn’t around 10 years ago.”

Kardashian compared the mental clarity she gets from her gym workouts to writing negative thoughts down in a journal. “If you’re having a bad day, you get that anger out (at the gym),” she said.

Though she feels better mentally and physically since getting into shape, Kardashian said her body confidence was actually better before.

“Looking back, when I was bigger, I thought I was the hottest thing in the world,” she told Bustle. “I had so much more confidence the bigger I was, which is what’s crazy. And then the more in shape I am, the more insecure I can get because I’m so hard on myself. It’s a vicious cycle that you don’t get out of.”

“But when I started losing weight, I got the same thing. I was fat-shamed every day when I was bigger, and then when I lost weight, people were like, How dare you, you are so insecure, you’re following society,” she continued. “And I’m like, ‘OK, you guys are so confusing!’ I realized you’ll never make everyone happy. I have to do what’s best for me.”